My heart is heavy.

Yea, I probably shouldn't have gone to bed at 8pm.

Because now it's almost 3 am and I'm totally awake.  And I have class at 8:30.

Uggghhhhh.

seasons change.

Alright.  Now I'm ready for warmer weather.  The winter was nice and pretty and all, but I'm in the mood to switch things up a bit.

I miss grass, laying in the sun, eating hot dogs, and the smell of chlorine.

I heard this today on the radio and it made me happy.

Apsies.

Sometimes I wish I could create a book out of me and April conversations.  Real life or instant messaging, it's never dull.

That bitch is toooo funny.

Heh.

Oh, and let's also talk about....

how I'm having some weird Britney Spears freak out lately.  I'm not sure why I refer to it as such, but when I do, what I am referring to is my hair.  I'm sure the title stems from her shaving her head.

I just cut my hair a month ago.  I was sad that it was all gone.  Then why do I want to chop it off even more?!?!?  Ugh.  I'm even over the red.  I'm over the bangs, but not really.  When I think I want to grow them out - I just want to cut them again.

What.the.eff.

Thursdays

My Thursdays begin with class at 8:30, then I am free for the entire day.  This is my alone time to do homework and what not.  Slowly this is becoming my day of cleaning, as well.  Unfortunately this entire day is spent with anxiety for me.  I grow anxious, for some reason, just thinking about waking up at 5am Friday and Sunday for work.  I dread it so much and I don't know why.  It's never really that bad when I actually do it.

I'm stupid.