I read a lot of message boards regarding losing a baby and how to not be a total nut job in the pregnancies afterward.  I read about all of the wonderful births that have happened after stillbirth. 

I really hope that I get to post a positive successful story about pregnancy/delivery after a stillborn.  That would be nice.

In really good news; I won't have to be pregnant for 40 weeks!  I get to deliver way early and that makes me happy.  I also get an ultrasound every 2 weeks and already have more photos than I did of Dominic.  Those appointments really do help at putting my mind at ease......temporarily. 

I haven't told a ton of people about this pregnancy.  I'm finding it difficult to embrace it completely.  I'm not sure if I should share it with people.  I think it may help me get excited about it - but as always, I'm scared.  I mean, I haven't gone back to my therapist yet (as I am suppose to when I get pregnant) because I'm too scared to tell her!  Really?

Ugh.  I'm such a pussy.