http://fayobserver.com/articles/2011/01/31/1067647?sac=Local

I still just can not believe it.  I wake up every morning thinking that maybe it has all been one big nightmare.  I go about my days constantly thinking about it.  I am just so sad.

I have never had someone so close to me die.....  To just - be gone.  Waves of sadness, frustration, anger, and nostalgia overwhelm me.  I am realizing that perhaps I am not equipped to deal with such loss in my life.  Everything just seems so ..... artificial.

Fuck.