Giving credit where credit is due.

After this semester, I believe that I have about three semesters left of my undergrad.  This means that I only have one semester before I have to decide whether to apply to Graduate School or Law School.  If I choose to apply to Law School, then I must begin to prepare for my LSAT test.  This fact is utterly absurd to me.  I still feel like a child in the fifth grade.  How is this even a possible scenario for me?  I digress.

I have done a pretty awesome job at scattering out my classes so that I am not taking all 400 level classes at once.  I mix up my senior classes with some two and three hundred level classes for sanity purposes.  I have not taken the default classes that everyone seems to take (and hate), when required to fulfill things like the visual literacy requirement, etc...  This means that this semester I took a 200 level theater art class rather than some crappy 100 level visual literacy class.  I will admit, it was very intimidating at first being that I am not, and have never been - an artist.  We have multiple art projects due throughout the semester which we have to present - in front of the class.  Ouch.  My first presentation, during my presentation, my professor asked me if I was an Art major.  I laughed and just blew him off, I mean....what is he thinking?  It is now the end of the semester and our projects have become more demanding and much much more detailed.  I am now asked to actually draw things.  I have spent time drawing multiple things required for the course.  Faces, clothing, etc...  I was shocked to see how well I have done.  I left my drawing pad on the table in the family room.  I asked Ray last night if he had looked at my drawings.  Indeed, he did and he mentioned that they were really good.  I think we were both surprised at my artistic abilities.  I said to him, "Babe.  I didn't even know that I could draw!"  He replied, "You didn't think you could cook either, but you can do that well too!  I just don't think that you try."  .......I just don't think that you try.  He is absolutely right.  I do not give myself enough credit.  I have never given myself enough credit.

And with that thought, I have decided to give Law School a try.  I have proven over and over that, if I put my mind to something - and actually try - I do really really well.  Every semester I have come out with a 3.8 - 4.0 GPA.  I have gotten my GPA up from a really pathetic score (from when I was a stupid 18 year old who totally fucked up) just by really trying.  I just need to try.  I cannot let fear of failure to keep me from trying.  Because failing is okay as long as I really tried.

I have not really voiced my desire for this in any sort of serious manner to anyone other than Ray.  Not even an hour after our conversation, Ray had already gotten my LSAT practice tests to me.  I have decided to make my Christmas Break my start to really prepare for the test.

Gulp....nervous.

And yet another song that appropriately goes with the blog.