I am smoking my last cigarette as I type this. Tomorrow marks the first day of me being a non smoker. I am filled with anticipation to see how well I do. The feeling is rather different than the typical dread I have felt the other two times that I quit. I have high hopes that this one will stick. Third times a charm, right? The unfortunate thing is that I will have to avoid of few of my trigger friends. Not entirely, but just in certain situations. I am prepared for the extra weight and have already packed my bag to workout immediately after class tomorrow. I am mentally prepared for, yet another, lifestyle change. Might as well make them all in the same year.
This year has been really rough. But I feel as though I have weeded out and finally found my real friends, stopped drinking, found a bit more positivity in my life, appreciate school much more, and just generally appreciate all of the people that are good in my life.
They say it takes three days for nicotine to get out of your system and the rest is mental. I may be a raging bitch. Oh! And I started my period! This is a big deal considering that my body has been so out of whack that I haven't really had one in over a year.
This all pleases me tonight. Tomorrow, however, may be a totally different story.
I just put out my cigarette. So long my dear yet horrible friend.
........and moving forward once more.....
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